Venting post

    Okay so tonight I need to vent.  I know I am not perfect in any way, but holy dang.  Since my family have arrived in Hawaii so many bad things have happened.  My husband has had to have a kidney removed, my girls are being seen for a few different reason, my son is being checked because he lost 2 lbs and hasnt gained anything back( just to be safe), and I have been so stressed out that it is insane. 
    Yes I understand that we live in Hawaii and that it is beautiful, but unless you live here you have no idea what it is really like.  I have developed island fever.  It is driving me nuts not to be able to leave this island and go somewhere new for even a weekend.  I haven't met to many people that I would truly call friends either.  This REALLY bothers me.  I love my friends back home, and the few I have met here, but I really just wish that I could find more.  We are in the process to try and move to a new part of the island....praying this is excepted.  Maybe it is the answer to some prayers.
    I am hoping to get around more people who push me to be a better and healthier person.  Please say a prayer for our family.  So we can all be happier and so my daughter can go to a school that she loves.

Being a Military Wife.

Recently I have heard so many people dogging on our military.  As a Proud Army wife I would like to address those people......You are able to dress the way you want, go where you would like, attend the school of your choice, practice the religion you believe in openly, and speak your mind ALL because of my husband and all the other selfless men and woman who serve in our country in one branch of the service or the other.  I am thankful everyday that all those people have done what they have so my children can grow up in a country where they can be themselves without being punished for it.  THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS SERVED, IS SERVING, OR WILL SERVE THIS COUNTRY IN THE FUTURE!!!!  ALSO I WOULD LIKE TO PERSONALLY THANK ALL OF THE FAMILIES OF ALL THE SOLDIERS.....WE HAVE TO STAND UNITED AGAINST IGNORANT PEOPLE LIKE THEM!  HOOAH!!!!!

What can you do?

What do you do when you don't feel like yourself?  When you want to give it more, but you don't know how.  This is the situation with me right now.  I just want to feel like me again.  Soon I hope.....very soon.

Too Tired

So much homework tonight.  sorry no post.

Feeling guilty

So tonight I am sitting here and feeling pretty guilty for leaving MI.  There are so many people back home who could really use my help right now, and I am to far away to do anything,  I feel selfish.  I know my husband and I made this choice to better the life of our children, and I am happy we did it for there sake.  But I cant help feeling like I should be back home helping the ones that I love.  :(

Struggles

So I have found that my biggest struggle in life is food.  Some people are addicted to tobacco, some drugs, some alcohol, but for me it is food.  I have next to no will power when it comes to it.  I try so so hard  to not allow myself to be tempted, with usually very little success.  I HATE it.  I just want to be healthy and happy.  I want to be that perfect role model for my children......I want to make them proud.  I want to feel comfortable with myself......I want to make my husband see the effort I am making every day.  I will continue to work on it everyday.  For today though it is still a struggle.

And So It Begins!

As I sit here tonight things are running through my head.  Things I need to improve on, things I need to give up, things I need to hold on to tighter.  I am thinking about the things that mean the most to me....my children, my husband, my family and friends.  I hope each and every one of them knows just how much they truely mean to me.  Without them I would be nothing.